A Creator's Lament.

No new episode of The Movie Breakdown today. Maybe later this week. Maybe we just reset and call next Monday the relaunch.

If Guinness kept track of “most relaunches by a creator,” I’d probably be in the running. The site might already be near a hundred. The podcast isn’t far behind.

I know that I’m being hard on myself. My brain feels like cotton candy sprinkled with nails. I’ve been trying to plan my freelance schedule, send out pitches, apply for work, and keep this site alive. The rejections keep coming, and while I know some of the pieces are good, it’s still hard.

Finances are tough. I need a win. I need to feel like I’m contributing to my family and not constantly scrambling.

I’m still learning how to work with my brain. How not to focus only on the struggles. How not to let the state of the world crush me.

So, no podcast today. But tomorrow will come soon enough.