The Movie Breakdown misses another Monday. And maybe the biggest disappointment is that not a single person complained or even asked where it went. The consistency hasn’t exactly been rocking for a few years now, which drives me nuts, considering we spent almost a decade dropping episodes every single week. Back when the show first started to wobble, people did check in and wonder what the future held.
Now the show has been so inconsistent that people have naturally moved on to shinier, more reliable things. And even when an episode does appear, it’s a very different version of the podcast with just me, while Scott is on an indefinite hiatus. Whether that hiatus becomes permanent is entirely up to him, and after everything he’s poured into the show, he has earned the right to make that call.
But I don’t want the podcast to end. Just like I want this site to be updated daily, and I want to get back to writing movie reviews and publishing pop-culture essays. And I want Life on the Balcony to hit inboxes at least once a week.
I haven’t been great at any of that lately… unless you count the daily posts here, which have mostly been “throwaway” updates or repurposed social posts. The truth is, I’m in a frantic scramble to make enough money for Christmas and prove to myself that I can earn an actual income from writing again. That means pitching mania and rushing to put together quick-turnaround services I can sell immediately.
Everything else becomes a “hopefully I’ll get to it” situation. Especially since my energy is running low between doctor appointments, medication adjustments, and trying to acclimate to a CPAP machine, all while untangling the riddle of how to work with my neurodivergent brain after decades of trying to “fix” it the wrong way.
So, all this to say: the podcast still exists. I’m hoping to post something this week. The Substack will continue. Movie reviews will return. I want all of this to happen in December, but if it doesn’t, then let me whisper that January is the month where things finally arrive in full force.
I whisper because I’ve said the same thing for years, and I’d rather show the change than declare it.
No matter what, I’m grateful to everyone who’s still here despite the messiness and the stops and starts. You really are the best.
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