Not a Relaunch

Confession time.

My obsessive AuDHD brain is not only obsessed with restarts, but it also has specific rituals that it finds soothing and necessary, even if it actually adds more stress and drain by hopping to the front of the priority line.

The daily “throwaway” posts became part of the ritual.
Only one person cares about maintaining the streak.
And when the streak breaks, that person scrambles to “catch up.”

That person is me.

I've convinced myself this is mandatory before I can start podcasting, writing  Substack newsletters, reviewing movies, creating short stories, start pitching, and numerous other things.

But it doesn't matter; but the mindset has proven harmful despite my brain finding it comforting. It has trapped me in a loop.

Even though it has been over a week since something has been posted. I am not going to try throwing together posts to fill in those slots.

Or at least, that is the plan. My brain isn't very happy with this.

It is time to move on. It is time to create new things and not allow every little hiccup to derail. The only person enforcing the rule is the one it’s hurting.

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